I think it’s sweet how fortunes come true. For example I got this fortune about a week ago, and guess what it says: “Someone from your past has returned to steal your heart”
Which means basically that fortunes are real, and also means that Adam and I aren’t going anywhere. He doesn’t want to, and I quote “Stop anything or start anything.” Knowing this upset me, and in a way he again stole my heart. I believe that he is making our relationship seem to be bigger than it really is because honestly, I never asked him to be my boyfriend, but I can understand that maybe that’s where it might have headed. I hoped that this would last longer than it did, and I hoped that he had grown up a little bit, but I guess he still hasn’t. He told me that he wants to be able to see me everyday or else he feels detatched from me.
I told him that I don’t want to do this every time he feels like he wants me. We both know that a couple months down the line we’ll meet up somewhere randomly and suggest seeing each other again. I don’t want to do that because I always end up getting hurt. Mind you I am only hurt because I thought that our relationship was going very well. It didn’t have anything to do with sex, it was just us. I only wanted to get to know him. To love him. I was shut out. I’m hurting, but I know this is temporary. It’s just the aftershock, which wasn’t really a shock at all. I almost expected it. It was in my fortune.