Tonight I’ve done the hardest thing that I’ve had to do in my life. I had to tell someone that I love that I cannot talk to them anymore. I’m sure all of you have an idea of who that is, and if you’re thinking Tony….it’s not fucking Tony. I never loved any boy the way I love this kid. We weren’t even together for three years and it seems like we just broke off a three year relationship.
If you’re wondering why I’m writing about this it’s because I need to get it out of my head and onto something else. This kid was my first love really. But I had to let him go. For my own good. I can’t just keep letting him in every time he wants to love me again. It’s not working, and every time we try it ends up in the same place. He needs to live his life, his 19 year old life, and I need to live mine. I need to date. I need to start kissing people the way that I kiss him, because I’ve never kissed anyone else the way that I kiss him. I hope that he truely knows that. I love him, and everything about him, but I’m letting go.
Please support me.